Another old prayer and to do list

When I moved in, I made a list. And then I added some dreams and upgrades.

Microwave

Bookshelf

Bed

Desk 

Chair for desk

Dining table

Dining chairs

Lights

Dishwasher rack

Laundry soap

Dish detergent

Sponges

Cabinet for toiletries

Laundry basket

Dresser for closet 

Pots and pans

End table

Desk lamp

Kettle

Toaster

Upgrade

Food 

Water

Friend

Cat

Car

Internet

Phone

Dog

Pickleball

Warcraft

Art

Bookshelves

Light tree

Wife

Firewood

Fireworks

Tennis

Health

Job

Second job

Motivation

Creativity

Intention

Gumption

Courage

God.

Hygiene

Work.

Safety

Books

Meaning

Love

Caffeine

Nicotine

Relationships

Sin card

Driver’s licence

Taxes

Credit card

Health card

Therapy

Quiet

Party

Goodness

Recovery

Sex

Rent

Fun

Imagery

Plants

Clean house

Review

Writing

Closure

Forgiveness

Law abiding

Good Samaritan

Donations.

Oranges

Rice

Pasta

Sandwiches

Meat

Energy drinks

Thank you

Reciprocity

Moon

Sun

Stars

Peace

Angels

Tranquility 

Roleplay

Games

Enigmatic strength

Purpose

Glamour

Change.

Tattoos

Perfection

Blog

Vanessa’s right

Vanessa’s home

Vanessa earned her freedom

Vanessa deserves respect

Vanessa deserves love

Vanessa deserves a good husband

Vanessa earns her truth

I trust that Vanessa is often correct

I trust that Jesus put Vanessa in my life for a reason

I respect the process

I feel like you are unworthy to stalk me

I want a relationship centred in Christ

I want the old and the new

I wish I could change the time for you

I wish you happiness

I wish you honestly a great time

I wish you would trust me

I wish you would let me earn my last truth

I don’t pray for death anymore

You can be who you want to be

You don’t need to change for me.

We all go through things, and those things change.

I’m trying to repent to a God that is holy.

You don’t have to be holy for me.

I enjoy you the way you are.

I have shed my old sins, and wish to communicate as adults. We each have unique ways of coping.

My mind is good, and my body needs work, but yet we know that there is no hope without other people around at times, or those moments of quiet contemplation.

When I see you again, I’ll make the right commitment 

Whichever one of you is here, good or bad, it is what it is. We’ll get through this. I love how you could make me laugh. I love how you pushed yourself. I loved you for whatever you were then and now. There’s more to life than us, but Vanessa we were always strong together. Each person makes choices, and the old choices made us go through a lot. There’s good people out there. Including anyone reading or not. We could restart. She could too. He could always be with us, and there is always a way forward. The universe doesn’t want us to be unhappy. We all say stupid shit. You were a great actor. You are a great teacher. And I enjoy you even when we’re not together. We all have a role in earth. Death does not bind us. Life is special, and I know more now than before that there is a reason. A good reason. And that you forgive. Christ is within me and you and anyone else. I’m not a bible thumper, but God has a role in my life. So does women, witchcraft, time, darkness, and solace. I’m praying for us and you and them. Please find your grounding .