Today’s end

So, believing is something else. When I feel trapped, I read, I write, and I go on with life the way I know it. Then there’s an interruption, like the system, a vice, or even a whisper that someone offers as they pass. That’s how I know, that’s how I’ve coped, and sometimes the devil I know is better than the devil I don’t. Today I felt a little lost, in general this could mean yesterday, now, or I will be soon. Good advice is so hard to take. I’ve thought about new work, food, money, relationships, family and friends. Today, like I said yesterday, is new like the last. Maybe it’s true, I can’t make a choice. When I was at church once, it got eerily silent and I screamed: “I don’t think I have a choice”! And it feels like that sometimes. It truly does. I heard a lot of options. I can’t be everywhere, I can’t be myself all the time; yet, somehow I am. If you’re reading this, oops, I missed the ending too. It goes on. That’s all I know about life. It goes on even after the thrill of living is gone: right? There is a thrill in living. And being a perfect little angel, but a liar at that, doesn’t solve the world’s issues. Being motivated, being encouraged, being loved, and having someone to share life and laughter with, that was the cure.

Let me tell you how.

Take advice. Draw the lines. Build a box with a door, a window, and a lot of free will. And then meet yourself.

“Life is like a rolling wave – sometimes it comes in, sometimes it comes out. But if the wind and rain and sun and pain speak to you: put it down on paper. And remember. There’s more to life, but some things never change – and moreoften than not, some things do.”

Matthew James Vlasblom