More than double-booked

I had more than 6 places to go,

I saw a little fluff, a little row,

I saw time, in the window,

I saw the light, the dark and the sky,

Change into a rose colored fly,

I saw my life go forward and back,

Inwards and outwards,

Like a Neverending panic,

And then I sat,

Without a care,

Alone in the dark,

Avoiding the air,

And now it’s just when,

I wonder why too,

Today I didn’t do it to you.