Last night stealing the light

I finally called the Smoker’s Helpline

I thought I could do it alone, but truth is, there are really only a few things you do alone.

You come into this world, you fight to survive, and then you go. Sometimes you do things like listen to music, watch TV, play a game, read a book, play some sports, cook, eat, have a drink, or just sit back and put your feet up. Sometimes you lose a little control – sometimes you let yourself get into a dark place, because someone you know or knew is not around, and sometimes you have patience, other times you don’t. In the start, it’s not easy – you fight the good will of your upbringing, you might have to endure some hard times, you might have to make some sacrifices. Truthfully, you can do it all – you can do almost anything, and I say almost, because truth is that the good will of God is greater than the will of yourself. The pastor says it, your boss encourages it, and your sister or brother might know better than anything else. You are always just you, and that’s what needs to change, not the things you can’t control –

In between or up or down

In the end when you frown,

You see a light turned upside down,

but with a grace, in 5, or 10,

There’s a reason,

Life begins again.

So choose the light, to save yourself. Choose the day you won the fight, choose the name you got alright. Let it be the grace you’re given – let it be sex or heaven. Let it be, the person who, never stopped to believe in you. You can do it, you can run, but in the end, the day will be won. Whoever God is, whoever is right, I will always, do it with a second sight.

There is more to life than just a game. Roleplaying, all the same. That’s ok, and it’s a day, you will have to learn to forgive maybe.

So how long it lasts, the silence calls. The angel of death, or the cross. Choose the cross, and choose the guy, who did it all, before end of fall. 🙂 I will get through, I will get through. There’s more to this than me and you.