This is how

up a storm of peace
Then fire the engine
Then did some job fairs
Then had a follow up with Sophia maybe it will go well like I want to change meds maybe just off the injection it’s causing me time stress
Then I call helpnline in morning afternoon I call grandma and then night eat and work on music choices for tomorrow and then game for 4 hours and sleep at 3am
The Vanessa will call in a delirium but happy and ill want to smoke no I don’t smoke sorry but do you want my leftovers?
I will eat some toast and go for a walk to the store for ice cream. But I’ll get an energy drink instead and double back to home
Regretfully the craving comes and then I ask Vanessa for some help online but then I panic and take my meds
Afterwards I do some exercise with weight and go back to the gym and mastubate but have some trouble wanting to be perfect and read the Bible
Then I cry a little but feel better and go through some mood shift and call the help line
But it’s a long wait and then I need a smoke and Jesse is not open so I choose to vape. But valing is expensive so I buy some juice instead and see someone smoking and have more stress and then I choose a new store forgetting the music is playing
And then I don’t think I can stop the repeat