Not sure what’s more startling

That the clock stopped at 11:04

That I was led to notice by grandma

Or that it doesn’t really bother me that this happens anymore

Or maybe it does

And that’s why I write

Who will I rely on?

Who will I trust?

If I cannot even trust myself?

Which is what I’m starting to see

That it might just be me

Am I failing thee

Green spider?

Is there anyone else in this world

But you and me?