Aug 15 come again?

  1. 5:46 PM]Clearwaters: I have a lot of games I’ve bought but never played, or barely. Guild Wars 2 was in the category some time ago too. I’ve purchased Divinity: Original Sin, Starbound, a few others. Dragon Age I think was another. I’ll probably start doubling back here and there when I can and really giving those games a chance. There’s gems there for sure
  2. [5:46 PM]Clearwaters: I am a bit of a shop-a-holic :S
  3. [5:46 PM]Kurai tamashī: lol
  4. [5:47 PM]Kurai tamashī: I can’t blame you
  5. [5:47 PM]Clearwaters: No seriously, I got my first paycheque this week at this new job and I think I’ve burned through half of it already. But let’s be honest, a lot of it went to bills
  6. [5:47 PM]Kurai tamashī: have you been doing better?
  7. [5:49 PM]Clearwaters: It’s relative really, I feel like I am, but at work there’s been some trouble adjusting to the new situation. I’ve never worked in a big office-style company, and I really do feel like everyone might think I’m an idiot. I’ve been having a lot of training on systems. After I play with my friend in GW2 tonight I think it’s back to doing research into how to do my job better. And to keep searching for jobs in case my contract ends again
  8. [5:50 PM]Clearwaters: I’ve been getting a loooot of advice lately. A lot of it I had sort of ignored, a lot of it I pushed aside. Truth is, I really need the help… I think I’ve always felt like I’m smarter than I really am. It’s not that I’m dumb, honestly, I know that… it’s just that there are a lot smarter people out there that know how to play the corporate ladder climb better than me. Not that I’m necessarily even concerned about that right now
  9. [5:52 PM]Clearwaters: The important thing for me right now is to make as much money as I can while I’m finally in my corporate prime and then start to think about the long-term. I gotta be realistic, I’ve lost a lot of jobs in recent years. The market has been tough, though.
  10. [5:52 PM]Clearwaters: I’ve been saying that even if I don’t have a family, I still have to support myself. Dropping those pre-conceived notions of who I might be in the future and just being more along who I am really, that’s probably the important thing I guess
  11. [5:54 PM]Clearwaters: I feel like I can communicate really well in written verse, but I clam up in-person chats…. I really do. The post-covid anxiety and getting back in touch with reality again, thinking on my feet. And not always about random things or what’s in my pants!!!! lol
  12. @ClearwatersI feel like I can communicate really well in written verse, but I clam up in-person chats…. I really do. The post-covid anxiety and getting back in touch with reality again, thinking on my feet. And not always about random things or what’s in my pants!!!! lol[5:54 PM]Kurai tamashī: LMAO
  13. [5:54 PM]Clearwaters: I rather had a possibly embarassing situation on Friday to be honest…
  14. [5:54 PM]Clearwaters: I am going to go and pray that it wasn’t as ackward as it might have seemed
  15. [5:55 PM]Clearwaters: That and work out again, meditate, and probably just do a lot of what I’ve usually done……….. maybe not so much. Maybe I haven’t done much lol
  16. [5:56 PM]Kurai tamashī: well honestly I’m glad you are doing better
  17. [5:56 PM]Clearwaters: I’ve been doing these impromptu exercises I’ve seen on the internet to help with my flexibility and stuff
  18. [5:56 PM]Clearwaters: Thanks, tell my doctor that okay? I’m sort of avoiding him I feel like, and I think that’s what could be helping :S
  19. [5:56 PM]Clearwaters: The journalling has been key.
  20. [5:57 PM]Clearwaters: Honestly, it makes it a lot easier when I can write out things, although I gotta do memory games or something!!! anyway, I’ll talk to you later; I’m looking around my apartment and seeing a lot of stuff that needs to be put away or cleaned before I get any video calls.
  21. [5:57 PM]Clearwaters: Here’s hoping I can get off my fucking ass
  22. [5:57 PM]Clearwaters: lol
  23. [5:58 PM]Clearwaters: I’m kinda feeling happy to be doing jack shit all today though frankly….!
  24. [5:58 PM]Clearwaters: It was really kind of you to stay in touch with me
  25. [5:58 PM]Clearwaters: was/is etc
  26. [5:58 PM]Kurai tamashī: well to be fair
  27. [5:59 PM]Kurai tamashī: if I didn’t care about you so much I wouldn’t have tried to come back after my account got banned
  28. [5:59 PM]Clearwaters: I care about you too Jon, I was really worried with some of the stuff you had been telling me about
  29. [6:00 PM]Clearwaters: Honestly, no person, lie or not, should have to think about the end that much. I think we both share in that misery sometimes